Deception

Had another crappy day in school.....

He seems like a perfect guy: a sportsman who excels in his studies.

He has the look,
He has the brain,
He has the talk,





sadly he seldom walk the talk.


Worst still, the armor he wore shines so bright that it pierces others' eyes.




Not me.
I see the rust through his so-called halo.

What we had agreed merely vapourised into the thin air.
Define your responsibility. Elaborate your excuse.
I'm tired and sick of it already.

A year. It has been a year.
Yet nothing has changed.

By the end of the day, I'm still stuck with what I had begun in the morning, which I had passed on to you in the middle of the day.

See? It always go in a circle.
You pushing the job to me.



Shyt.
Why am I caring so much?
Why can't I adopt an I-don't-care attitude?!


Life is so difficult.





I don't want to be human.

Outburst

I hate how people never try their hardest.
I hate how I can never let go of things easily.
I hate how I can't get my priorities straight.
I hate how people make me feel bad about myself.
I hate how people always think that they can get me to do everything they want.

I'm tired of being the civilised, reasonable, tolerant, mature one.
I'm sick of the bullshit they're feeding me.

Am I the only one that see past that so-called perfect image they paint on themselves?!

I hate irresponsible, irreliable, inconsiderate, think-they-are-so-great, thoughtless guys.
This call for most of the male accomplices I ever come across in my entire life.

I hate that I still find myself forgiving and caring for them.
I'm so useless.

My mood's so down in the dumps that I had to extract a 30-minute break out of my fully-packed hectic schedule to "meditate" (if day-dreaming is considered so)

There is this @#$% voice in my head that keeps telling me:
'It is my responsibility. I shouldn't be that fired up...'

Rational side? Or just my streak of thinking too much?

Gosh.
I feel like there's TWO person living inside me.
Two soul, one mind.
Two personalities, one body.

Gah! Come on, rip me apart!






I need my heroin.


music
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Rain.
It's raining.
Yeah! I love the rain....

Wash away the dirt on Earth.....
Wash away the sin of people.....

and leave nothing but the cool comforting breeze behind.

Blow, breeze, blow.

Blow away my tears,
Blow away my sufferings,
Blow away my memories.

Slither No More

Gross.

On the way to have a quick lunch at a nearby restaurant,
I encountered a carcass.

A headless reptile.

Ugh....snake.

A dark green snake with yellow patterns on it.
About a metre long.

Isyh....too bad I don't have any phone with me. x.x