Boredom

ohmigosh

*processing*

My brain just interpreted my feelings as:

COMPLETE BOREDOM

Let's review what I did today:

#1 Log in to my blog,
#2 Flit through my mails,
#3 Check my online communities
#4 Evolve into crazy fangirl mode and start saving every Big Bang (aww...G-Dragon and TOP are sooooo cute and cool!), DBSK pictures I saw

In short,
All I did the WHOLE @#%$ day in the whole month was just facing the laptop...

typing and clicking away.

*realization strikes*

MY LIFE IS BEING WASTED!!!!!!

I AM ROTATING.

No, actually. It's

I AM

ROTTING!!!!!!
sorry I can't find a better picture to depict what I'm trying to say.

My butt feels sore and flat.
(try sitting on a wooden chair from 7 am till 10.30 pm!)

My chair doesn't exactly look like that.
It has cushion on the seating place.
But it doesn't feel like it has one,
So what's the difference?!

I should be studying hard now...revising all the past Form 4 subjects (especially Chemistry!!! You have no head for it, dumbass!),
my conscience warned me.



This year is your SPM year! Are you still fooling around?! This is SPM we're talking about. It should NOT be taken lightly. You wanna throw your future away?!
my sixth sense reprimanded me.


But. I hardly let myself go like this. Scarcely I taste the joy of life...the freedom. How could I not get addicted to it?! What happen to the saying, 'Live up to the moment!' or 'Live your life to the fullest!' It's all FAKE, isn't it?!
I defended myself.

I'm obviously losing the battle.
It wasn't for the sake of the argument that I defended myself.

It was for the sake of stalling some more time so that I could spend a little more time doing what I had always wanted.
Doing what I had always wished in the heart of my hearts.

To be carefree.

Let's face reality.

I'll never achieve it...