Deception

Had another crappy day in school.....

He seems like a perfect guy: a sportsman who excels in his studies.

He has the look,
He has the brain,
He has the talk,





sadly he seldom walk the talk.


Worst still, the armor he wore shines so bright that it pierces others' eyes.




Not me.
I see the rust through his so-called halo.

What we had agreed merely vapourised into the thin air.
Define your responsibility. Elaborate your excuse.
I'm tired and sick of it already.

A year. It has been a year.
Yet nothing has changed.

By the end of the day, I'm still stuck with what I had begun in the morning, which I had passed on to you in the middle of the day.

See? It always go in a circle.
You pushing the job to me.



Shyt.
Why am I caring so much?
Why can't I adopt an I-don't-care attitude?!


Life is so difficult.





I don't want to be human.

Outburst

I hate how people never try their hardest.
I hate how I can never let go of things easily.
I hate how I can't get my priorities straight.
I hate how people make me feel bad about myself.
I hate how people always think that they can get me to do everything they want.

I'm tired of being the civilised, reasonable, tolerant, mature one.
I'm sick of the bullshit they're feeding me.

Am I the only one that see past that so-called perfect image they paint on themselves?!

I hate irresponsible, irreliable, inconsiderate, think-they-are-so-great, thoughtless guys.
This call for most of the male accomplices I ever come across in my entire life.

I hate that I still find myself forgiving and caring for them.
I'm so useless.

My mood's so down in the dumps that I had to extract a 30-minute break out of my fully-packed hectic schedule to "meditate" (if day-dreaming is considered so)

There is this @#$% voice in my head that keeps telling me:
'It is my responsibility. I shouldn't be that fired up...'

Rational side? Or just my streak of thinking too much?

Gosh.
I feel like there's TWO person living inside me.
Two soul, one mind.
Two personalities, one body.

Gah! Come on, rip me apart!






I need my heroin.


music
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Rain.
It's raining.
Yeah! I love the rain....

Wash away the dirt on Earth.....
Wash away the sin of people.....

and leave nothing but the cool comforting breeze behind.

Blow, breeze, blow.

Blow away my tears,
Blow away my sufferings,
Blow away my memories.

Slither No More

Gross.

On the way to have a quick lunch at a nearby restaurant,
I encountered a carcass.

A headless reptile.

Ugh....snake.

A dark green snake with yellow patterns on it.
About a metre long.

Isyh....too bad I don't have any phone with me. x.x

It's the cow year!!!

Moooooooo~

and I pig myself out.

oink!

Foooooddddd......just can't get enough of them.

Besides munching, I spent most of my time leeching on the widescreen.....

Blood Diamond

Really open my eyes. Poor Third World.
Ladies, think twice before buying bling bling!
It's not only your pocket that's involved in the transaction.

Transformer

IP Man

Prison Break Season 3

Prison Break Season 4

Michael Scofield is just so BRILLIANT!!!!!!!
Man, this series's really engrossing, exhilarating, mind-bogging, etc (all the good remarks)!
It keeps me sitting on the edge of my bed!!!!!
(TV's in my bedroom. So, no couch. It's my comfy bed. =P)

*-* i'm totally falling head over heels for Michael Scofield~



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I WANT TO WATCH THIS ONE!!!!!!!!:

RED CLIFF [PART 2]

Takeshi Kaneshiro playing the wise Zhu Ge Liang!!!!!

No offense, dude. But I'm really hoping you, a famous war figure, is as good looking as they portray you in the movie!

hehehe~ brains & looks are the perfect combination!

Women Are Crazy but Smart!

A married couple is driving along a highway doing a steady 60 miles per hour. The wife is behind the wheel. Her husband suddenly looks across at her and speaks in a clear voice. "I know we've been married for twenty years, but I want a divorce."

The wife says nothing, keeps looking at the road ahead but slowly increases her speed to 65 mph. The husband speaks again. "I don't want you to try and talk me out of it," He says, "because I've been having an affair with your best friend, And she's a far better lover than you are."

Again the wife stays quiet, but grips the steering wheel more tightly and slowly increases the speed to 75. He pushes his luck. "I want the house," he says insistently.

Up to 80. "I want the car, too," he continues.
85 mph. "And," he says, "I'll have the bank accounts, all the credit cards and the boat!"

The car slowly starts veering towards a massive concrete bridge. This makes him nervous, so he asks her, "Isn't there anything you want?"

The wife at last replies in a quiet and controlled voice.
"No, I've got everything I need," she says.
"Oh, really," he inquires, "so what have you got?"

Just before they slam into the wall at 85 mph,the wife turns to him and smiles. "The airbag."

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xD ~ ain't that hilarious?! this proves that you guys better think before crossing our lines!

poor husband though.....

Dolling Up for the SEASON

Barleyfreak dolling up?

That's not something that always happen.....
Unless something BIG is coming up.
Unless it's something.....SOMEthing like

Chinese New Year!

Yeah baby! It's the Chinese season of ushering a new year~
One more day. 24 more hours.
The sky will be splattered with multi colour
The air will be a mix of smell. Food, fire crackers, the festive is in the air!

Even right now, I can heard the fireworks shooting to the sky, breaking the cold silent night.

And what has Barleyfreak been doing all day long?

Doing a last-minute shopping spree!
Food, food, food and more clothes!
I went to Boulevard, and of course, no one can miss out Parkson.
Parkson in Miri has been given a major face-lift.
Now, it's no longer the old Miri Parkson. It's a brand new KL-some-sort- Parkson.
Hoo-ray! At last~ a REAL Parkson.

Man, I can't wait for Monday to try out all those new outfits!
There's Voir, TomsGirl, Union Bay, Applemint, etc.

And there's also Tuesday!
A close buddy of mine gonna throw an open house for all.
With a condition for ladies: wear skirts!

which is pretty a difficult challenge for me.....
since I don't own one.
Sixteen and skirtless.
Yeah, that spells ME.

But, I'll try my best.
I really really REALLY will.

See, I went to Boulevard and saw this nice white skirt.
But it only creeps a few inches below my thigh.
And that material looks transparent!
Heck, my skin illuminates through that thin white material.

No wonder it's 50% off!
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Oops! Guess I stray from my main post. Sorry! Back to the 'dolling-up' part.

Now. What do I mean by dolling up....
Nope, no make-up. I'm strictly against foreign oily substance on my face.

It's.....*drum rolling*deng-deng-deng
clearing unnecessary things off my body.
Well, if you've been in a girl's shoes, you'll definitely know what I'm talking about.
If not, well....just stay as ignorant as you are now.
~ignorance is bliss~

See, I'm a very considerate and thoughtful person.
I would not want anyone to lose their appetite when everyone's busy mixing the yee seng, and then, you see something unpleasant. You can't help it. The sleeve is large (or should I say, short) enough for your vision.

I'm stating that from my experience. Ugh....wouldn't want to think about it. That moment is engraved in my mind. Sick sick sick.

The conventional methods I know are quite tasking and time-consuming.
Craning your head to one side for an hour is seriously more straining than doing sit-ups.

The common method, which I never try, could be painful and risky.
Heck, I shudder whenever I see a knife two feet from me. Do you think I could possible hold a sharp kit near an inch of my skin?!

And the brand new method, introduced by my sis, seems pretty harmless and easy!
Just apply it on your skin, and the hair will just fall off!
That's how the instruction sounds like to me.
Hmmm.....
HMMMMMMM........

Does it seriously work that way?! I still don't know yet.
Will try tomorrow morning.
If survive, you'll heard from me soon.
If not, well....piece of advice: JUST STICK TO THE CONVENTIONAL / COMMON METHOD!

No Sitting Zone

Some funny pictures I found while randomly surfing the net.
They all send a pretty frank warning. =P

Either you got the 'Stay Off Me' message through your eyes....or your butt!

[ S.I.C.K. ]

I guess I'm not iron woman after all.

My shields got penetrated by the javolin of sickness.

Jeez...I'm reminded of my own susceptibility.
I'm so weak right now.

My eyes are drooping.....

My throat is searing and itching at the same time....

My body is about to go into shutdown mode.

Must finish this post before that happens.

I went to consult a doctor in Columbia Asia just now.

Doc said I had a slight infection in my throat. And my lungs.

So. What's my sickness? Cold or flu?! I'm still pretty confused between those two.

All I know is that my mind is kind of woozy now.
On-and-off fever pays frequent visit to my head too.

Plus, I have a running nose.

When it gets bored of running, it'll just laze around, making TWO of my nostrils completely blocked.

Can't breathe.

Have to suck in air using my mouth.

Can't taste my food.

My taste bud isn't working. All I could taste is bland bland and bland

My tongue feels so numb that I can't even detect the presence of food on them.

*sniff*

I think my sickness is taking a worst turn after the Physics tutoring.

Know why?!

My classmate on my right is sick. He coughed occasionally throughout the tutoring.

The guy on my left is sick too. He coughed occasionally....and I can hear the thick oozing mucus in his cough.
Some guy in front of the room is sick too. Cough cough cough.

Heck, everyone's hacking their lungs out in that small tiny room!

I'm telling ya, the air is CONTAMINATED~

germs, bacteria, etc....you named it.

It's no wonder that bacteria in me found their other half and multiply quickly.

*sigh* Immune System, you pick a bad time to let your guard down.

I'm having @#$% tests next week!

History, dude!!!!
You want to take my time?! Why not my life ?

Ugh....I can't stand it.

Need my sleep ASAP now.

sorry. Need. My. Sleep. Zzzzz...Zzzz...

School Life #3 Physics Tutoring

"Punctuality will be appreciated"

Those words greeted me the moment I stepped into the red car awaiting silently for me under the big shady tree.

Where do I hear those words again?
I racked my mind for that piece of memory.

*light bulb flickering*
Ah. It's the note that I wrote and stuck on my Sis's laptop.
=P in case she's too engrossed in the virtual world and forgotten to pick me up!

Turned out that I have to eat my own words instead.
Thanks to that 'Board of Class Monitors' meeting.

Anyway, we sped off the moment I plopped myself on the cushion.
No time to spare.
My schedule's as tight as a celebrity could be.
I need to head to my physics tutoring in about 10 minutes before I'm officially declared late, and made a big-show entrance.

When we reached there, it was already 4.17 pm.
My tutoring started at 4.30 pm, so I was taken back when I opened the door....to an empty room.
Gee...seriously, can anyone tell me what's the definition of 'punctuality' in this modern era?!

I picked my seat at the back, like always.
Then, I'm lost to my own little realm, accompanied my my iPod.

As the minute hand creeps closer and closer to 30, people started to stream in.
Right. This person. Know him/her from last year.
Ooo....This person. Either new student/just changed to my session this year.
Aaah....This person. Familiar face. Seen him around in school.

All of a sudden,
Eeeek! This person?! How...? Why is 'this person' in my session?! I saw him like...almost everywhere! Even my Chemistry tutoring for godsake!

He moved into the room and revealed another more appalling figure.
0_o (my expression)
This cannot be happening. This cannot be happening. This cannot be happening.
(the chant in my head)

It's him. Pretty notorious in our school for his 'activities'.
Saying him a leader of the underworld might not be exaggerating.

Though I maintained a calm don't-give-a-damn composure,
my heart was hammering like mad in my ribcage.
Wait. What's he doing?! He's heading towards my row, my place!
I glanced at the seat on my right side.
Shyt.

It's empty.
It's practically hanging a huge, bright V-A-C-A-N-T neon sign on it.

*groaning in my head*
I have to sit with him?

No way man. That is just SO RANDOM!!!! Me and him is like a thousand world apart, and to hell with all those fanfics, or Korean dramas, our fate will NOT be entwined, or some sort rubbish like that. Why can't he choose other session?! I'm pretty comfortable with a few of my classmates here...etc

While I was busy arguing destiny in my head, he got into my row, and just sat next to me.

Just
Sat
Next
To Me.

x.x doom doom doom doom doom

It was pretty awkward.
The table isn't that large too, mind you.
I cleared my things from his side, and put it at my other side, closer to my classmate.
See? Ain't I kind? Giving him a larger space.

That's the most I could do I guess....
since I don't really fancy doing the get-to-know-each-other part.
To hell I'm gonna say, "Hi. I'm barleyfreak. What's your name?"
Any student in the school who don't know his name really have to double check if they're in the same school. Seriously. Asking his name will be like, "Hey. What's your gender?"
Redundant huh?

So. Our tutor came in and the tutoring begun.
It was pretty easy to banish all the jitteries and awkwardness evoked from his presence by my side.
I just have to concentrate on the tutoring, that's all.
I mind my business, he mind his.
See? Mutualism.

As the assignments are passed from the front, we have to wait until it reach our table.
When it finally does, the guy beside me caught me offguard again.
"Thank you," he said to the person in front of him.

WHAT?!
Did I hear wrong?!
That came out of his mouth?!

I'm really surprised.
I mean, does the word' thank you', a show of gratitude, actually capable to flow through the lips of a guy like him?!

Hmm....looks like there's more about him than what meets the eye. Or ears.

I thought that we would share nothing but awkward silence between us, throughout the one-and-a-half hour tutoring. Turned out that I was wrong.
He is truly an extrovert.

--please take note that all the following conversations is conversed in Chinese. Translation might distort the dialogues...a little.--

"Is there any toilet here?"
My senses sharpen instantly. What should I do? What should I answer?!
"Um...yes?" duh.
"Where is it?!" he prompted again.
"Outside from here. You just have to go outside, walk ahead, the toilet's there." I replied.
"Oh. So I just have to walk through the door and the toilet will be there? Walk through the door, is it?" he asked
"Yeah. The toilet has a door. So of course you have to walk through it."
He gave a light laugh. "Of course toilet has a door!"

+_+

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Him: "Gee..you know all the answers to the questions. Do you read at home?!"
Me: *startled* "No. The answers are all in the book. See?"
--silence--
-_-

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Him: "Are you the type who could remember by reading once?"
Me: *raising my eyebrows* "I guess you can say that...."
"Wow. I have to read 10 times, and I still don't get it."

*laugh*

#_#

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Me: *after seeing his assignments are still blank* Don't you understand what teacher said?
Him: No....
Me: Then why don't you ask?!
Him: So many people....feel embarrassed to do so.
Me: *in my head* Gee..you have the element of shyness in you too?! YOU?! *scoff* unbelievable!

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That's only the second day of the tutoring.
Gee...80++ to go....

School Life #2

Today,

~I'm finally through with Number Bases! =D
~Accomplish my Chemistry experiment...
(to me, this is something to be proud of because my experiments always FAIL. Not sure if it's my lack of science skills, or lack of luck...)
~Stuck at school till 4.00 pm, then rush to Physics tutoring...
~Got home with tons of homework and topical tests to study for

So.
There was a special 'meeting/training' for class monitors and assistant monitors this afternoon.
Gawd. I had to stay back. =(
Since the 'meeting/training' started at 2.30 pm (school ends at 12.00 pm today),
I had to hover around the blocks for about two hours.
What a waste of time.

When my Boss and I entered the conference room,
it's pretty packed. Guess it's not the students the only one in the meeting. Even the teachers are in it too.
Sure, I can see four air-conditioners hanging high up on the wall,
but I can barely feel any cool air.
That room was freaking warm and scented with the smell of sweat and sock.
Awesome huh?

The whole meeting was about establishing a 'Board of Class Monitors'.
Gee...our school's really organized.

Practically, the board will have to help students, lead them by example, and of course lighten up the environment of the classrooms so that students can study in a more conducive...environment.

Guess who head the Board?!

Hehe....my Boss!
*salute*

That position shall be his third portfolio as a president.

He's really a brilliant all-rounder!!!!
I think he's the ONLY student in the WHOLE school, out of 3000 ++ students, who is the PRESIDENT of THREE clubs!!!!!


I'm proud he's in my class!!! =D
And glad that I have a chance to know him ^-^

School Life #1

This post shall be the first to many more sequence posts begining with 'School Life', which will be my laments of my school life.
Pretty direct huh?

First lament:

I can't see the board, I might as well be blind!
I could hardly decipher whatever teacher wrote on that @#$% whiteboard!
The bad thing about using whiteboard....light tends to make the words on them INVINSIBLE!
Markers sucks.
I hate blue and red markers.
Why can't they only manufacture black markers that produce thick oozing ink?!

Though I have Munchkin as my reader, I feel guilty at times for bothering her.

Gee...should I bring a binocular to school?!


Second lament:

The food still stay as 'appetizing' as it always were.
My first lunch....nasi lemak not only blessed me with a full stomach,
it also granted me unwanted stomach spasms and made me feel nausea the whole afternoon.

Oh, yea! Perhaps you're overjoyed to know that I was having a topical test ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!
It's ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS, by the way.
So.
While I was struggling with those complicated formulas, I was fighting the pain in my stomach too. Two battle in one mind.
What a nice day!


Third lament:

Everything is just so RUSH!!!!!!
Need to prepare English Oral by next Monday.....
Need to study for History Test before Thursday....
BM Novel Quiz will be next,
SV project?!

GAH~THIS IS CRAZY!!!!!!

Time is extremely limited, and there is NO option to back out from all these assignments.
Everything is taken into account.

No do = no marks.
No marks = slaughter by parents.

It's a dead end.



Will a terminal disease please come and claim my life?!

The Stampede

Gee...it's been almost a week since this school starts...but I only get to lay my hands on the laptop today.
Just consider this post published on 03.01.09 okie?


03.01.09

A large mob gathered impatiently in front of the gate.

Waiting.

Tick tock Tick tock...

Waiting.

Creak....

The gate swung open.

Roar...

Everyone rushed in. Stamping. Pushing. Shoving.

Give way little ones, lest you get trampled on.

Shrieks. Screams. Shouts.

Ah, what a jovial start of school days!


That was how I imagine the first day of school would be.
Turned out that my imagination wasn't anything random.
In fact, it's partially true....
except the noise pollution part.

It was still dark when I arrived at school around 6.00 am.
Dark...but not alone.
I could see clumps of silhouettes here and there.

Shyt. This is bad news.
With so many shadows wandering around, this could only mean one thing:

The building is still in lockdown.

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My intuition was right.
And news that the gate to the buildings will only be opened at 6.30 am is spreading fast among the students.

Gee...that would mean that the late birds will also get the early worms right?!
(in our school system, you have to fight for your own seat. Literally. Most of the time, there will not be any change of seat. Meaning, you are stuck at where you picked from the beginning of the year, till the end of the year)

I glanced at my watch.

It's only 6.13 am.

The time seemed to pass excruciating slow.
My senses got sharper and sharper by the seconds.
I could feel the muscles on my shoulder, straining against the heavy weight of my slimbag,
My legs feel sore and numb,
And I had to struggle to keep my eyes open.

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After what felt like a century, the crowd started to get agitated.

There is a sound.....in the distance.....
A sound that seems like the push of the gate. Keys dangling. Locks unclamped.

As the sound registered into everyone's mind, their bodies were already on the move, in search of the open gate.
Some walked. Some jogged. And most ran.

Did I mention that a few did nothing at all?!
Well, I'm one of those few.

My motors were immobilized.
I find it appalling to run to the other side of the building, when in fact my classroom is situated right at the side of the building, where I am standing.

Gee....all those rush for the sake of a seat?!
Now, I figure that the school system is pretty ridiculous.

Anyway, when I finally got into my classroom,
there isn't much people around yet. So I figure that I still have a wide choice.

Wrong to think so.
When I was about to put my bottle on top of a table situated in the middle row, a friend of mine said, "No, barleyfreak. YOu can't seat there....it's XXX's place. See?"

Huh? I took a closer look at the desk.
'XXX' was scrawnily scribbled with a chalk.
It wasn't the only table with a specific name on it.
The WHOLE @#$% row had names on it!

WHAT THE HELL?!
Some sort of 'booking'?!

Fine.
Let this XXX have XXX's way then.
Wouldn't like to stir up any trouble on the first day.
Had enough in my mind already.

So.
Minus those seats with names on them,
only those back rows are left vacant.
I picked one and try to make my place as cosy as possile.

Then, I looked around.
What I saw really made me went from -.- to >:(
My friend was seating on that damn place that she said belonged to XXX.

So. What happened eh?
Temporary memory loss?!

I'm enough pissed off by the cunningness of some people....
But what really broke the straw was the incident of my 'friend'.

*sigh* school really brings out the best in you I guess.....

Define Woman

Hey. I totally disagree with the end product,
but it gives me a whole new perception regarding maths:




=D....we can define anything using maths eh?



A/N: This post is only for amusement. No offense is intended. I'm a female anyway! ^-^

The Past Me is Back!

Gee...I have a feeling today is THE day I will really start to kick off
the new year.

Unlike the other mornings for the past two months, I woke up.... surprisingly,

with no urge to head straight to my study room!

In case you think that I'm going straight to my study room to STUDY,
you are so wrong and far from what I'm trying to convey here. ;D

My usual day begins with me taking a morning shower, a light breakfast,
then plopping myself in front of the laptop (in the study room),
my eyes glued to it the WHOLE day,
my fingers busy typing away furiously.

BUT.

TODAY.

AS IN T-O-D-A-Y, the present....

I not only lack the insatiable urge to venture into the boundless virtual world....

Heck! I even thought of doing some Arithmetic Progressions and History.
Horror of horrors!

Gee.....the old sensible me is finally back to reign.
Where've you been all these holidays eh?

It's pretty late to start all serious now, but....better late than never! =D
I'm pretty ready to take on the world!

I have to walk away from the thing I wanted the most.

Guess my plan for a frivolous life will have to be put on hold.

For the moment.

GOODBYE DESIRE!!!!

FAREWELL TEMPTATION!!!!

The timing might be slightly inappropriate....but I certainly value our acquaintance.

My LOVE (part II)

Alright. Here's the last piece of the puzzle.
(Actually, it's a continuation from the previous post.)

And like the previous post, the hints are all there.
Gather it, and you'll get a key to the bugging issue that keeps banging in my head
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Close to my sweet sixteenth year,

you were already there, walking by my side.

I knew you too early. Too fast.

Yet, you told me not to worry.

The earlier, the better.

You told me to build together as much memory as possible.

After all....you are equipped with a capacity of 160 GB.

You are truly enough to last through my lifetime.

Leather jacket.

A gift for you.

You've never told me if you like it or not.....

but words doesn't matter.

Your actions speak louder than any sound.

You've never been anywhere without it.

Anything I want,

you'll grant my wishes come true.

No fuss.

Just like a genie in a bottle.

I said I want to watch my idol's concert in my room,

you stood by me and presented me Jay Chou's four-hour concert

on your 2.5-inch color screen.

I said I want to see SeungRi's 'Strong Baby' music video,

you allowed me to enjoy it full-view, with full surround system.

Sick of you.

I never was.

Wait. Maybe once.

Of the leather jacket you always donned on.

I know it makes you look sophisticated,

But it doesn't take one 20/20 eye to notice that

your covering has lost its attraction,

Tainted by creases and wrinkles of time.

A new Gecko Glove covering
is all it took to make you look as good as new.

That transparent skin even flatters your 4.1 x 2.4 x 0.53 inches form.

SPM I'm having this year.

An inevitable doom.

My future at stake....

I'm sorry

I can't give it up for your sake.

Is it possible for me to study for real?!

History is too dead.

With you by my side, in my ears,

my mind refuse to take in the boring facts.

It rather concentrates on your voice.

Additional Mathematics is too tasking.

You take the stress off my mind.

But I ain't as efficient as I was before.

I purposely arrange my school books right in front of me,

so that it will be easy for me to reach them,

so that it will prompt me to do my revision.

But I lost focus once my eyes caught a sight of you.

Can't help it.

My hands reach for you.

Let's be truthful and face reality.

You are really one distracting but comforting companion.

Contemplating another option....

Can I kick you out of my life?!

That's couldn't even be an option...

could it?!

My LOVE

One more day before school starts and hell breaks loose,
my life has already started to morph into the mundane hectic style it was before.

Too many things ran amok in my mind,

And since I'm too bored, I shall present my thoughts in the form of a one-shot.
Hehe...if you're smart enough, try guessing what issue I'm talking about. ;D
The hints are all there, bare for you to notice
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I never knew you at all.

Only seen you.

Only heard of you.

And never expect to own you.

You came straight for me, wearing silver overalls.

You called the shot.

Said you could entertain me for the rest of my life.

40 000 songs I'll play for you.

Hear one each day,

and I'll be with you for eternity.

Your vow, engraved in my mind.

Perfect partner?

No doubt of it.

You even perfected the structure of your mouth so that
it can sit snugly on my ears.

Your every word breaches my mind.
Your soothing voice infiltrates my heart.
Every genre of the music in you enraptures my soul.

You make me feel alive...with your upbeat music throbbing closely in my ears.
You dazzle me always...with your amusing act on your 2.5-inch color face.
Up to 40 hours in a day, you catapult me to stardom.
You make me feel that I am the center of the crowd.
The spotlight's on me, baby.
Everyone's cheering for me.

Only 4 hours you requested

to regain your full energy before you snap your attention back to me again.

Sometimes when I'm drowning in boredom,

or choked by sad depressing thoughts,

you were there to hold my wits together.

You cast those absurd thoughts from my mind,

blasting them with the stereo minijack you sit on.

Damn. You're flawless.

I can never enough of you.

I freeze every sweet moments in my life,

fearing that time will rob them from me.

But you calmly told me that you will be my memory

should anything happen to mine.

Be it JPEG, BMP, GIF, TIFF, PSD, or PNG,

You tell me, "Bring It On!"

You are my keepsake after all.

And when you knew I feel like reminiscing the past,

you are on it instantly.

Sliding photos one after another,

playing soft melody in the background,

you're the best catalyst of nostalgia.

Feeding On Big Bang Solos

Taeyang ft Big Bang- Look at only me MV
by jess1tymer

[KOREAN LYRICS]
Credit to: bobo6465 @ BUGS MUSIC
Edited by: Jeska + gdluvzmc @ VIPtranslators
*do not add to or remove credit line*

(GD: ya’ll like this man
ayo, your boy GD letting ya’ll know
VI ready to blow (VICTORY)
His stage, his show,
His moves, his flow
And holding nothing back
Just letting it go, fosho.
Show ‘em what you got brah)

hey sexy (crack crack crack crack)
tonight you know (crack crack crack crack)
i’m a strong baby (crack crack crack crack)
put on my jacket and then.. (let’s go)

let’s make love tonight 오늘밤 내 눈을 가려줘
여기까지 란 소린 마 날 놓지 말아줘
터지는 네온싸인 깨지는 미러볼
이곳엔 너와 나 단 둘이서 rock and roll
(헤이 거기 baby tell me what you want it say yeah)
아직도 넌 누굴 기다리고 있는지
(헤이 거기 baby take me 어서 빨리 come to me)
거칠게 다가와 don”t stop

이제 시작이야 하나가 될 시간이야
내 발등에 너의 발이 내 몸 속에 너의 팔이
같이 춤을 추고 같이 불을 피죠
we’re so hottest in the world like d d d d d this yo

you like it (crack crack crack crack)
all grown up (crack crack crack crack)

새빨간 거짓말 내가 싫다 말 하지마
왜 이제와 딴소리 네 볼에 남은 키스자국
절대로 잊지 못할 어젯밤 뜨거웠던 밤은
나이는 묻지마 i guess you know love me
(헤이 거기 baby tell me what you want it say yeh)
떨리는 눈 뭘 망설이고 있는지
(헤이 거기 baby take me 어서 빨리 come to me)
너무 겁내지마 relex your mind I’m so so so cool

Repeat chorus

let’s party baby shake it baby all night long just one night one shot
V I C T O R Y feel me my baby (hot like the fire)
넌 아니라 말하지만 네 눈은 말하잖아
음악 속에 널 던져 C’mon girl ~ with me

Repeat chorus

come a little closer (crack crack crack crack)
ye just like that (crack crack crack crack)
you know how it is (crack crack crack crack)
V.I like this bye ladies——————————-

[ROMANIZATION]
Written by: Jeska + gdluvzmc @ VIPtranslators
*do not add to or remove credit line*-note:

(GD: ya’ll like this man
ayo, your boy GD letting ya’ll know
VI ready to blow (VICTORY)
His stage, his show,
His moves, his flow
And holding nothing back
Just letting it go, fosho.
Show ‘em what you got brah)

hey sexy (crack crack crack crack)
tonight you know (crack crack crack crack)
i’m a strong baby (crack crack crack crack)
put on my jacket and then..

(let’s go)let’s make love tonight ohneulbahm nae nooneul gahryuhjoh
yuhgiggahjiran sorin mah nal nohchi marahjoh
teojineun neonssain kkaejineun mireobor
eegosen nuhwah nah dahn doorisuh rock and roll
(hey guhgi baby tell me what you want it say yeh)
ahjikdo nun noogool gidarigo itneunji
(hey guhgi baby take me uhsuh bbalri come to me)
guhchilgeh dahgahwah don”t stop

Chorus
eejae shijakeeyah hanagah duel shigah
neeyahnae baldeung-eh nuh-eh bahlee nae mom sogae nuh-eh pahlee
gachee choomeul choogo gachee booleul peejoh
we’re so hottest in the world like d d d d d this yo

you like it (crack crack crack crack)
all grown up (crack crack crack crack)

saebbalgahn guhjitmal naegah siltah mal hajimah
wae eejaeyah ddansori nee bole nameun kissjagook
julddaero itji motal uhjetbam ddeuguhwotdun bameun
nah-eeneun mootjijmah i guess you know love me…
(hey guhgi baby tell me what you want it say yeh)
ddullineun noon mol mangsuhrigo itneunji
(hey guhgi baby take me uhsuh bbalri come to me)
nuhmoo gupnaejimah relex your mind I’m so so so cool

Repeat chorus

let’s party baby shake it baby all night long just one night one shot
V I C T O R Y feel me my baby (hot like the fire)
nun ahnila malhajimahn nee nooneun malhajanah
eumak sogae nul deonjuh C’mon girl ~ with me

Repeat chorus

come a little closer (crack crack crack crack)
yea just like that (crack crack crack crack)
you know how it is (crack crack crack crack)
V.I like this bye ladies

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Seung Ri's solo is really REALLY catchy!!!!!!!!

I'm in love with GD's specs~

I want one! I want one! I WANT ONE!!!!!
where can you get them?! where?! WHERE?!

Can't get enough of Big Bang!!!!!

Wolf Man Strikes Tonight

X-MEN 3: THE LAST STAND

will be broadcasted in RTM 2 at 8.00 pm!

(finally! A nice movie scheduled at a reasonable time, not like the common 10.00 pm!!! =D)

Oooo....can't wait to watch it again!

I know I've watched it for about 3-4 times....

but,

I still get thrills whenever Wolverine pounced on his victims, and especially when Storm rolled up her eyes to electrocute the bad guys!

(when I first watched that sequel, I always wished that I possessed powers like Storm!)

Hehehehe...

I still LOVE X-MEN!!!!!

The wing's not bad....

but I find the one in Constantine more artistic!

A new year also indicates a brand new change for the broadcasting system of RTM.
It's been said that RTM 1 will be an informative channel, while RTM 2 will be an entertainment one.

Hmmm....wonder how RTM 1 will work?
A local version of CNN?!
Double hmmm....

Boredom

ohmigosh

*processing*

My brain just interpreted my feelings as:

COMPLETE BOREDOM

Let's review what I did today:

#1 Log in to my blog,
#2 Flit through my mails,
#3 Check my online communities
#4 Evolve into crazy fangirl mode and start saving every Big Bang (aww...G-Dragon and TOP are sooooo cute and cool!), DBSK pictures I saw

In short,
All I did the WHOLE @#%$ day in the whole month was just facing the laptop...

typing and clicking away.

*realization strikes*

MY LIFE IS BEING WASTED!!!!!!

I AM ROTATING.

No, actually. It's

I AM

ROTTING!!!!!!
sorry I can't find a better picture to depict what I'm trying to say.

My butt feels sore and flat.
(try sitting on a wooden chair from 7 am till 10.30 pm!)

My chair doesn't exactly look like that.
It has cushion on the seating place.
But it doesn't feel like it has one,
So what's the difference?!

I should be studying hard now...revising all the past Form 4 subjects (especially Chemistry!!! You have no head for it, dumbass!),
my conscience warned me.



This year is your SPM year! Are you still fooling around?! This is SPM we're talking about. It should NOT be taken lightly. You wanna throw your future away?!
my sixth sense reprimanded me.


But. I hardly let myself go like this. Scarcely I taste the joy of life...the freedom. How could I not get addicted to it?! What happen to the saying, 'Live up to the moment!' or 'Live your life to the fullest!' It's all FAKE, isn't it?!
I defended myself.

I'm obviously losing the battle.
It wasn't for the sake of the argument that I defended myself.

It was for the sake of stalling some more time so that I could spend a little more time doing what I had always wanted.
Doing what I had always wished in the heart of my hearts.

To be carefree.

Let's face reality.

I'll never achieve it...

Victory!

YES!!!!!!!!!

I've become the lucky 1000th person in my hit counter!

WOOOHOOO~

YAY!!!!!!

Thank you! Thank you!

This call for a celebration please!

Laugh Out Loud: The Worst Best Man

I start my new year with a laughter.

Check out this video.



Worst Best Man Ever @ Yahoo! Video


Found it on the way I check my yahoo mail.

ROFL~can't stop laughing....
it's pity enough that he TRIP during the 'passing ring' ceremony....

yet

he had to drag the bride whose day is suppose to have a happy ending and pastor who unfortunately have to be there to bless the couple down as well.

That wedding will sure be a FUN and memorable one!

kesian....


This one got me: 0_o


Nunchaku Ping Pong @ Yahoo! Video


True...or false?

Usher In the New Year

I was so tired...that I practically sleep once my head hit the pillow

Sleeping soundly I was....

until I was woken up in the middle of the night

to the blasting sound of firecrackers

and fireworks.

As if that weren't enough to spice up the new year mood

in the middle of the silent night,

the police sirens scream their lungs out too.
I think they are trying to catch those who are playing with firecrackers and saman them.


*sigh* There goes my New Year Eve slumber!

Then, FINALLY!

01.01.09
arrives

Bright sun rays seeping through the curtain

greets me at my first sight.

Ah...a bright sunny day is the perfect way to start a new day....a new year!

I hope that this year promises a better life,

extraordinary events,

and unforgettable moments.

MAY GOD GUIDE US WITH HIS GREAT WISDOM

2009 New Year Resolutions

Kota Kinabalu city dwellers spend time by the beach at Tanjung Aru to build a beautiful sand castle wishing Malaysians a Happy New Year - Pix by Datu Ruslan Sulai

My New Year Resolutions?

Hmm....I've been trying to put that behind my head, actually.

My resolutions always evaporates into thin air as time progressed

and stress piled up.

Mine a sad case. Really.

But who cares?!

It's a tradition. =P

So, there'll be no change for this new year:

I promise I'll try my very very best this year! *finger crossed*

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION LIST:

#1 Open myself up to the world

I seriously don't know what is wrong with me.

Maybe my upbringing transformed me into an introvert.

What a sad case. If I continue on like this....I don't think I can succeed in life.

Life only offers opportunities to those who are daring enough isn't it?!

Life is so confusing.

The line that defines humble and a brag, respectful and a busybody can hardly be seen.

How do you know that you've crossed it?!

#2 Expand my social network

Because of my introvert nature, my social relationship isn't as perfect as it could be.
My jaws are constantly lazy to bubble out conversations.
My mind always fail me when I try to live up a conversation or voice out my opinions.
So. I want to change all that for this year (and the coming years of course!).
I want to be a better friend to all my friends.
I want to spend more time with them before everyone picks their own road and pursue their dreams.
God, please make the clock tick slower this year~

#3 Spice up my life

Appreciate my life. Acknowledge that I only live as a teenager only once.
MISSION: Imprint memorable high school moments into my memory.
Meaning, I should join more activities and indulge myself in FUN of course!

#4 Better achievements

My results can be considered good...but it is still below my bar.
I feel that I did not give in my best during those examinations last year.
I believe that I can still do better than that.
Especially for my Chemistry.

Most of all, I want to achieve high distinctions in all my subjects for SPM.

#5 Improve my music skills

I feel bad and guilty that I have been neglecting them...
I must spare more time for them!
I want to get at least a Merit in the examinations!
I CAN DO IT!!!!!!
i hope

#6 A better me

I think this resolution will be the hardest to achieve since changing habit will be like cutting your skin from your body. But it can't be helped.
Like it or not, habits will embedded themselves in yourself.

Challenging this is.

But I feel ever more determined to prove that I can do it.

Let 2009 unveils a more patient and friendly BARLEYFREAK!!!!!